...what CBGBs failed to achieve...

With the words “Every dog has it’s day” one of the greatest Canadian bands went from struggling bar band to DETERMINED struggling bar band. Where once the doors of opportunity closed behind The Sadies we witnessed last night one of the greatest moments in Canadian Music History - A collision of 60 years worth of commitment to talent, passion and a great pint of beer.

The 60^th Anniversary of The Legendary Horseshoe Tavern marked the success of what CBGBs failed to achieve. An institution that has land marked musical history time and time again.

Last night staff, fans, industry and friends of The Shoe gathered for unlimited 50, commemorative beer steins and a subtle reminder that it isn’t the corporate sponsors, or the H&M down the street or the new café on the corner that keep Queen West from going belly under in a trend filtered, buzz induced, culture coma. photo by Phil Ogynist

It’s venues like The Shoe that have served up year after year fine musical dining. From the Rolling Stones to The Tragically Hip and every indie buzz band in between.

Let’s paint a picture of what you little people missed Thursday night shall we?

Imagine your high school prom but done up by someone NOT your grandmother. Endearing in design the Shoe was swathed in red and gold with balloons smothering every inch of ceiling. Our lovely Daria is doing the door and greets everyone warmly. There’s a STACK of commemorative 60^th Anniversary beer steins for each guest to take home with them [I took 2 – not gonna lie]. There’s unlimited 50 on tap AND in the BOTTLE. [Draft = no good. Always.] Food trays are circling shrimp and sushi heaven and top it all off – miracle of ALL miracles...there’s friggin coat check.

Did I mention that this is only the beginning? Now I know EVERYONE and their mother has seen The Sadies bring the house down. Some of you more so. Well Thursday was no exception. First up are The Sadies with The Skydiggers – legends people ROCK LEGENDS. Than Mom and Pops Good hop on stage and show us young folk that age my friend is a state of mind and that if I can rock out half as much or look half as good when I get older than there is hope in this world after all !

Next up Greg Keeler of – wait for it – BLUE RODEO jumps on stage and launches straight into a kinks cover that has the dance floor writhing with bodies packed at the front of the stage. The man has class and panache all wrapped in a fine tuned package of pitch perfect vocals. To go from dancing in the basement to Casino when I was a kid to standing at The Shoe..2 feet away from an influential part of my youth is surreal to me. Thank you Greg.

“That night in Toronto…with its checkerboard floors…” [Musical interlude for unavoidable schmoozing]

After a quick break of nicotine satisfaction and a quick pit stop at the bar, I’m steady balancing 2 pints and 3 bottles while winding my way to the front where I’ve scored what will turn out to be the best seats in the house when Gord Downie of The Tragically Hip makes a surprise appearance.

After a blistering rendition of The Stooges Search and Destroy, Downie settles in for a flawless set that sets the ladies screaming and the guys pumping their fists. Already this night has become one of legend. The few of us pressed to the stage can not comprehend exactly what is transpiring. What we do know is that this was definitely the night to haul ass and make it out – regardless of the fact that you’re hungover from the night before and the night before that.

Have I mentioned yet that one of the best things about The Shoe is its bar staff. If a venue plans to stick around for longer than leg warmers and teased hair it has to have more than a sound system and great beer on tap. It needs a staff that can make you feel at home and tell you to fuck off in one breath. It’s kinda like Cheers but without the cheesy show tune them song and brutal décor.

The last act to hit the stage is The Waco Brothers – a definite favourite off Jeff Cohen. Closing the night with humour and timeless guitar riffs is what The Waco’s do best and Thursday was no exception. Thank you boys – for pumping us up just to walk off stage leaving us hungry for more.

Thanks to the staff for making the Shoe what it is today. Thanks for taking all the jaded, self-centered, egotistical, money driven “industry types” and kicking some passion and respect for music back into their lives. Thanks to the fans that left any pretensions at the door and spent the night rockin the dance floor. Thanks to Steve McLean for showing us ALL up in a smoking Elvis Outfit – not everyone can pull off turquoise my friend but you did it with class. Thank you to Craig and Jeff for letting the taps run free ALL night and for bringing phenomenal programming day after day to us little people. Thank you to the Legendary Horseshoe Tavern for keeping our secrets, holding us up when the beer was bringing us down and for giving us a place where we can squeeze into rickety tables and soak up new and treasured music alike.

And most important – Thank you for one of the best hangovers I have EVER had the pleasure to endure.

What is Music Therapy?

Music therapy is a method of treatment used by qualified therapists to help people cope more effectively with their lives and with their difficulties. It is widely used in the assessment and treatment of children and adults.

Music therapists use the power of music to bring creative opportunities to people of all ages with special needs.

The goal of music therapy is to develop the potential of each person involved, rather than to promote musical ability.

Music therapy can empower those with special needs!

Music therapy can indeed make a difference!

Why Use Music?

We all know the power of music – how a song can bring back memories, or lift our mood on a bad day. Music can stimulate communication, relieve stress, provide motivation, and allow for spiritual expression.

It should then be no surprise that music can also help soothe, heal, and renew us when we face illness or disability.

The ability and need to respond to music seems to be innate; it does not depend on musical talent or training, and usually remains unimpaired by mental health problems, physical or mental trauma, or disease. This gives music a power, unique among the therapeutic media, to engage and sustain the attention of people and, in the hands of a trained therapist, to relieve a variety of distress.

We respond to music because we are rhythmic, we make melody, and we strive for harmony.

Who Can Benefit from Music Therapy?

Children with special mental, physical, or emotional needs

Children with communication difficulties

Children with developmental delays

At-risk youth

People with brain injuries

Elderly people, living at home or in special facilities

Adults with mental illness or neurological challenges

Those in palliative or hospice care

People who have been traumatized by life’s events

About the Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund

The Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund is a bold, non-profit initiative designed to integrate, educate, celebrate, and promote all facets of music therapy in Canada. We have been fortunate to have many volunteers working to support our endeavours to provide services to those in hospitals, clinics, and special schools.

Since 1996, with the help of the Canadian music industry, the Trust Fund has been able to distribute over 3 million dollars to over 300 projects, from coast to coast.

These projects range from hospices for terminally ill people with cancer or HIV/AIDS, to centres for the aged, to schools for children who are autistic, physically, or mentally challenged, to programs for street kids. The Trust Fund has also enabled programs for people with brain injuries, victims of sexual abuse, suicidal teens, and people who are isolated by psychiatric problems.

Music therapy is not covered by provincial health programs or insurance. While the recognition of the benefits of music therapy grows within the medical community, cuts in healthcare funding mean few facilities are able to offer music therapy programs. As a result, the work of the Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund is vital.

How You Can Help

A donation of:

$100 provides a home music therapy session for someone isolated or in pain

$150 funds a morning in a home for seniors

$500 enables a child with special needs to participate in a music therapy group or have two weeks at a music therapy camp

$1000 will purchase instruments for a project

$10,000 can put a therapist in a facility for 1 day per week for 1 year

For more information on donations, music therapy, or other opportunities to get involved, please visit our website www.musictherapytrust.ca or contact us at our Toronto office.

“I regard music therapy as a tool of great power in many neurological disorders….Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s …. because of the unique capacity to organize or reorganize cerebral function when it has been damaged.”

- Oliver Sacks, M.D., Professor of Neurology, author of “Awakenings” and “The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat”

“Music has been used for entertainment for so long, people forget it’s a powerful medicine.”

-Mick Hart, drummer, the Grateful Dead

“I have personally seen how music can transform and enhance recovery and bring joy on difficult days. As a musician it feels like the logical extension of all that we work for. You work so hard to make a connection with your music and this is music making the most important connection it can possibly make.”

- Craig Northey, The ODDS, Colin James Band

“The Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund is an amazing cause…I have always been proud to support it.”

– Tom Cochrane

9 - 5

excel - project management - MGMT - who's who, what, why, where? this is where i need to be ..who i want to be..

huh.

not philosophical - just sayin - what if i had balls..big ones..HARD ones - 2 of them please - balls on the bottom and on the top - is that what we call the "testosterone" wet dream? if i had balls would my brain be bigger? would my worth increase in value - would you find me intimidating? what impression would you get..hmmm...

pull back the blanket when you bury me - i'm out - done - if you can't see the green..my shoot..if you don't know, i won't enlighten you cause that's not my job. take the propaganda - YOUR BALLS - walk away - cut them off..cause you never used them anyways. EUNICH.

Can I quote u? one for the Times if you please. can I fill the gap between your lips with shit and bias..oh wait..is that cock already there? are you full? - have you gorged yourself on conceit and propensity - tell me are the wheels spinning round and round and round - am i your wheel..paper or plastic please. fries or rings? i choose rings. ring-a-lo's...is that right? i would place them on each finger - lick and suck them dry..drain them...clench down and demolish what was left - training maybe? early sex ed?

no teeth please.

UNSIGNED – An Indie Concert Series at the Roundhouse!

Steam Whistle Supports Independent Music Through

Toronto, ON, January 9, 2008 - Steam Whistle Brewing presents UNSIGNED, the fifth in a series of Indie music concerts taking place at the Roundhouse on Friday, January 25 2008. The edition and is presented in conjunction with the North by NorthEast Music and Film Festival. The concert will feature the Canadian independent bands Major Maker, Grand Analog and We Are The Take, plus the crew from OPOPO dropping tunes between sets.

Steam Whistle UNSIGNED is a concert series that exhibits Canada’s musical talent, as well as helping to develop its future. Each edition of UNSIGNED features three Canadian artists and a DJ, with 100% of ticket sales from each show going to the Artists’ Health Centre Foundation. The timing of this instalment was scheduled to bring attention to the NXNE submission deadline of January 31^st. To bring these events together, Steam Whistle is teaming up with Pandor Productions, NOW Magazine, Gibson Guitars and NXNE.

“14 years ago, when Indie was not yet fully formed as a State of Music, NXNE launched it's first event from the streets and clubs of Toronto. Believing that new and emerging talent needed a chance to be heard, NXNE was built by music fans for music fans. Today, our passion for independent music remains the same, and we're thrilled to support of the Unsigned Music Series.” -Andy McLean, Managing Director of NXNE.

Tickets are $5 at the door. Doors open at 8pm. For more information, check out our website www.steamwhistle.ca/unsigned, email indiemusic@steamwhistle.ca or visit UNSIGNED’s facebook group at http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2253827987

About the Bands:

Major Maker

Riding a wave of popularity following the release of their EP People Mover, featuring the catchy hooks of Rollercoaster and Talk to You, Major Maker is blazing up both the independent and mainstream music charts. Comprised of Todor Kobakov and Lindy Vopnfjord, two established musicians in their own right coming together to compliment each others’ styles. Bulgarian-born Kobakov is a classically trained composer with a degree in performance piano from The University of Toronto. Recent projects include string arrangements for Stars, Metric, Emily Haines, Jason Collett, and Sarah Slean, as well as touring duties for both Emily Haines and Small Sins. Lindy is a critically acclaimed singer-songwriter with three solo albums under his belt, a penchant for killer hooks, and a well earned reputation as a commanding live performer. Major Maker's live sound is augmented with the additions of bassist Thom D'Arcy (Small Sins) guitarist Ian LeFeuvre (Starling, Jim Bryson) and drummer John Ocerbian (Sarah Harmer).

www.myspace.com/majormaker

www.majormaker.com

Grand Analog

Grand Analog is unbalanced and dirty; never clean. Grand Analog is fuzzy with three coats of dust and reads like an old manual no longer in use. The music is a beautiful mess of rap'n'roll dub and soul; a hip hop slop shop of times good and bad. UNSIGNED is excited to have Grand Analog bring their hybrid musical styling to the stage. The sounds they are creating have even been recognized by the renowned hip-hop heads at Okayplayer:

“To most of us, Winnipeg, Manitoba seems as unlikely a place as any to generate a superb hip hop album, but that is exactly what has just happened. Grand Analog, a collective of hip hop artists hailing from “Peg City,” (with a couple Torontonians in tow), has just released its debut, Calligraffiti. It’s a beast. . . Calligraffiti is stocked with some of the thickest, sweatiest beats you’ll ever want your ears to drudge through. . . Bottom-line, Grand Analog is about to heat up Canada faster than Bush’s environmental policy.” (Okayplayer.com)

www.myspace.com/grandanalog

We Are The Take

Take one singer/guitarist with a penchant for writing songs with catchy, danceable rock melodies combined with heart-wrenching lyrics; add a young singer/guitarist with a bent for upbeat pop songs filled with wry observations; throw-in a world-class drummer with years of studio and road experience that included one major highway crash and a resulting broken back; and lastly garnish with a brash bassist who lays down a thundering foundation. Together you have WE ARE THE TAKE.

With a string of successful shows in the their pocket and a recent win at the International Songwriting Competition in the Performance Category (for “Montreal Love Song”), the band won the attention of 3-time Grammy Award-winning producer/mixer David Bottrill (Tool, Peter Gabriel, Muse). With Bottrill producing and recording underway on their first record, WATT has their eyes firmly fixed on what their listeners expect will be a very bright future.

www.myspace.com/wearethetakeband

About Steam Whistle

Steam Whistle, an independent brewery housed in Toronto’s historic John St. Roundhouse south of the CN Tower, has a singular focus of making just one beer of exceptional quality that Canadians can be proud of. They brew their refreshing Pilsner with traditional brewing methods and only four, natural ingredients. Steam Whistle Pilsner is packaged in signature green glass bottles and shipped fresh across Alberta and Ontario to Beer and Liquor Stores as well as licensed bars & restaurants. Steam Whistle welcomes more than 60,000 visitors to the Roundhouse each year to the on-site retail store, for a tour or to attend one of the many on-site events and art shows. They are proud of their indie music sponsorships, fostering great Canadian talent wherever they can.

To learn more about what they do really, really well visit www.steamwhistle.ca

About North By NorthEast

North by Northeast Music & Film Festival and Conference, June 12-15, 2008: Canada's #1 festival for the best new independent music and music-related films . Musicians & filmmakers: Don't miss the chance to showcase for 70,000 fans at the event of the year. 500 local, national and international artists rock the crowds and play for media and key industry pros at over 50 downtown venues. NXNE also screens great music-related films from around the globe—concert classics to indie docs, past & present. Applying to NXNE is cheap and easy: Just visit www.nxne.com and follow the links. Don't wait—submissions close January 31!

About the Artists’ Health Centre Foundation

The Artists’ Health Centre Foundation (AHCF) supports the work of the Al and Malka Green Artists’ Health Centre (AHC) at Toronto Western Hospital, and in addition, is involved in outreach, education, and prevention services for the over 20,000 professional artists who live in the Toronto area. Their goal is to bring alternative and medical practitioners committed to working together into one location. This initiative, along with a subsidy program for those in financial need, will save artists time and money, as well as raise the quality and effectiveness of their treatment. www.ahcf.ca

To put your name on the media guest list (2 concert tickets and 4 drink tickets per media person) for this concert, email indiemusic@steamwhistle.ca

Weaselpalooza 9

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Now playing: Kostas Karafotis - Dwdeka Akrivos
via FoxyTunes
TORONTO, ON, January 24, 2008 – The ‘Weasels’ are once again throwing their annual party ‘Weaselpalooza 9’ to benefit The Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund [CMTTF] at the Steam Whistle Brewing Company 255 Bremner Blvd in Toronto on February 1, 2008.

Since its inception, Weaselpalooza has raised over $193, 000 for the CMTTF and its beneficiaries. It has since become a forum for industry types, fans, musicians, national retailers and media to raise both money and awareness for music therapy in Canada. Featuring Tyler Westerlund [White Cowbell Okalahoma], DJ Nasty Nav [Play De Record, etc], local star DJ Ted Dancin’, a Guitar Hero III Tournament AND silent auction; this year’s event stands to be the best one yet!

This year we also honour our recently passed friend Carl Herman. As the husband of Fran Herman, one of Canada’s first music therapists, Carl was an early champion of music therapy and a co-founder of the trust fund. Together, Fran and Carl were our dynamic duo.

The Weasel’s thank Astral, Bodog, Entertainment One, Feldman, Globe Media / CHUM radio, inDiscover.net, Mediabase, MSN Music Store, NEWCAP Broadcasting, Rogers Broadcasting, SONY BMG, Sympatico / MSN, Sympatico / MSN Music Store, Universal, Warner and Xbox for the support of the CMTTF and Weaselpalooza.

Since 1996, the Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund has distributed over 3 million dollars to over 350 projects, from coast to coast. These projects range from hospices for terminally ill people with cancer or HIV/AIDS, to centres for the aged, to schools for children who are autistic, physically, or mentally challenged.

Showcase your talent at Guitar Hero III or just come cheer on those who do! Weaselpalooza 9 and the Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund are going all out Friday, February 1^st 2008 at The Steam Whistle Brewery with live entertainment, appetizers, cocktails, silent auctions, door prizes and MORE!. Get connected at www.myspace.com/weaselpaloozaparty.

To obtain tickets for this event, purchase online at www.musictherapytrust.ca or call (416) 535-0200. Admission is $20 in advance, or $25 at the door. All proceeds are donated to the Canadian Music Therapy Trust Fund.

Event held February 1, 2008 at Steam Whistle Brewing, The Round House, 255 Bremner Blvd, Toronto. Begins at 8pm till closing.

*ahem*

http://www.nowtoronto.com/lifestyle/story.cfm?content=161425#Story_Tools

bathroom inspiration

***PAUSE***
re: a comment I put on Phil's blog [which I only know about through Raymi. well fuck me I might as well mention every effin person with a goddamn blog] oh wait...i don't have enough space so here's a start. Liam. Britt. Chris.

see comment: Dear Philogynist

Although I know you best drunk, stumbling and - sometimes - witty. I feel we are close enough for me to be honest.

For a self-professed leaf fan I feel it is your duty to use this means of reaching the masses to report on the complete idiocy that is the Toronto Maple Leafs and the STUPIDITY of us - the fans - that insist on making the jaunt to pubs to watch a losing battle and spend hard earned coin on ticket after ticket. It's not even about the game anymore - we sit on the edge of our seats GRIPPED in suspense just for a FUCKING GOAL! We don't even hope for a win anymore - just a score under double digits.

phew. I'm done. Now make me happy with something much more eloquent!

***CONTINUE***

CLAP - loud - no.. loud - k louder - LOUDER..where the fuck are you? not here..not now..not WITH ME ! cause if you were you wouldn't be sitting at home watching some mundane sitcom on Global with your ch-ch-cherry cola, ben & jerry's in pajamas with your hand DOWN YOU PANTS. just sayin. you'd have been here - with Louis XIV not history..music..but are they so different? maybe an edited version - accompanied by a grand piano.

I do not regret the things I've done but those I did not do....

well..i may regret writing this shit. BUT since it is MY blog i really don't have to justify anything do i? not my thoughts, words, deeds, opinions, clothing, drink of choice, mid morning snack - or the 5 pounds i may just put on for fun!

anyways - here we go...

BACKSTAGE

hmmm... what's the draw - the attraction? do you want to fuck them -lip service - lipstick - limp dick..hold their guitar maybe? really?!!! - WHY

is it for the rush - a drug - to share the high of being onstage behind soul, passion - fire. is it organic for you? can you fake it? ride their coattails..

it's nice to find a band you like....NO - a band you ACTUALLY like

do your ears bleed cause the amps too close - when the vibrations are your heartbeat...Why? do you want your own Almost Famous - are you the Golden God..or just high..that's a problem dude.get help. ask Britney she knows.

Coil - a play - my soul - produced, my salvation - produced..each word - production. who knew. Joy Division - let's dance..wait didn't The Wombats take that? or Interpol .. or The Editors..an acid trip maybe than? Eric's Trip or The Monkees - Jack Nicholson - can you see the connections easy rider? no. too bad. them's the breaks Tony Basil.

"I have to go home"

*moment of timeless wisdom - pause*

"You are home"

yeah it was Almost Famous...jealous

Cock Rock @ it's FINEST!

Imagine you're born in 81. All you get is a tease of the greatness of the 80s - the Glam, The Crotch, leather, bandannas and scarves on mic stands.

Fast Forward. past drunken nights screaming Bon Jovi on the dance floor and Sweet Child of Mine in the shower. Welcome to Wednesday November 15th downtown, Toronto. 2006.

Our heroine - Gillian - mission - attend G 'N' R - goal - survive. So what do you do? you buy the hottest red pumps and you work it.

Recipie for success: exit cab @ ACC, pick up tix and complimentary "wanna fuck" passes [backstage], sneak camera into show, stock up on ridiculously over-priced booze and hit Row 2 side stage AKA best seats in the house! Courtesy of hot new keyboardist Dizzy. Don't forget the bathroom and bar [key ingredients] are a mere few feet behind you.

At some point in the evening you will encounter your own Almost Famous moments - in fact you're gonna star in your own version. It'll start when Dell [tour mgr] comes and escorts you backstage, through the underbelly of the touring machine - followed by a visit by mother nature on the G 'N' R tour bus and a perfectly chilled bottle of Jager. Skull it !

Be prepared for paparazzi upon returning to your seat - apparently just coming from backstage warrants some fame. Say Cheese! Now u rock out to Die Mannequin, are titillated by the Suicide Girls Burlesque and get revved when the operatic vox of Sebastian Bach belt out good ol' Skid Row. Throw in some Tralier Park Boys crashing Monkey Business and you got the beginning of one very fine evening!

and now the grand finale GUNS and ROSES - including braided dreadlocks from the man himself. They rocked hard, vocals pitch perfect [can Axle and pitch be used together?] and played till 1:30am. that's right folks - no lights - nothing, just joints bein passed and drunken frat boys being thrown out. You share a huge grin the with dude behind ya [thinks you're hot by the way ;) ]
- look out at the bikers, cougars, white trash, rebellious teens, slutty chicks and think to yourself - YEAH BABY I'm HOME!! So head bang your way to the end of the night cause it's After Party Time. [but first you have to break a bathroom door handle, get locked in and than jimmy your way out and than take the handle home with you - all in good fun of course]

After Party: Free food, Free booze - secret location, alley entrance EVERY FREAKIN BAND MEMBER SHOWS - photos but none of Axle - he's shy you know ; ) you laugh, have a drink, share a story and next thing you know it's 5am. The night has been surreal. It was ol' Skool rock at it's finest. Tits & Ass, booze, leather and late nites. It was perfect!

"BZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz" What that F*ck - oh that's your alarm. It's 9am - time for work SUCKA!

disclaimer: SOME people thought this was a dream..so i'm not a good writer - whatevs. it fuckin happened.

S4C

i know i know..I'm pushing it..just do it so i don't have to preach later fuck

oh yeah - again from when MYspace was good for more than randoms adding to your page BEFORE you figured out there was a security option.

Just in case you FORGOT!

Hey Guys

There's an awesome guy named Rob Dyer who has more vision, commitment and passion than most folks our age. His fight to raise awareness and funds for Cancer is an inspiration even to the most jaded. Through events and shows geared towards today's youth, Rob and his awesome team fight the battle against cancer through alternative and innovative means. Please read the following and add the links as your next friend.
Once you add - go check out the space and grab a code for a banner to put ON YOUR SPACE

Here's a little background on S4C roots.

Skate4Cancer founder Rob Dyer found inspiration in marathoner Terry Fox and his mother Wendy [who was fighting cancer at the time] to put together a skate marathon across Canada and US to raise funds for cancer research at Princess Margaret Hospital.

Four months prior to the trip's start in Los Angeles, Rob lost a dear friend to stomach cancer, his paternal grandmother to stomach cancer, his maternal grandmother to brain cancer and his mother to brain cancer.

In March 2004, Rob and his team of volunteers met in LA, having secured funding and a donated school bus from sponsors of the trip. On the homeward stretch north along the eastern coastline, Rob was continually challenged by heart-breaking events. Rob was frequently bumped or hit by passing cars; though uninjured, these experiences played were mentally exhausting. Escalating physical pain in his fractured ankle and a weary perspective made for a harrowing finale to the cross-country skate tour.

In honour of those he had lost to cancer, Rob reached within himself and found the courage to complete the final leg. Physically and emotionally spent, Rob concluded the tour in Newmarket, Ontario in July.


So I'm taking time to ask you to add

www.myspace.com/skate4cancer

www.myspace.com/dreamlovecurefashion

or if you're in Australia please add

WWW.MYSPACE.COM/SKATE4CANCERINAUSTRALIA

so about those leafs

i wrote this when Myspace was big and yet it's still relevant..nuff said

Well we're out - but that's what happens when you leave it to another team to get you into the Playoffs.

Face it boys - if you can't do it yourself WHY think someone else will do it for you. So it's 2 yrs running we won't be in the Playoffs -and yet next year I'll line up with every other Leaf fan at bars and games and in front of TVs everywhere to watch another brutal season - hoping futile hope that we'll MAKE IT.

Guess you've got me for another year boys....*sigh* just tattoo SUCKER to my forehead!

waaaaaay back...

12:35 and crashing

for those that know me - and i mean know me as in sober, drunk, sick, emotional, irrational, etc.

for those that know me - well you know i like to keep busy. insanely busy. i thrive on stress. and yet i find myself at 12:35PM drinking a steam whistle at my desk as i agonize over what bullet I'll take on next.

I'm hidden below a brim - new hat i bought very Bolshevik - tee from a friend, make-up from last night. all i care about is that my boss doesn't mind me havin a pop as long as i get my work done. kinda like an episode of Rolling Stone.

see i have this exam - a kinda "when hell freezes over i might barely scrape by" kinda exam. a refresher for most - debilitating for me. so I'm drinking. and listening to music - happy music actually ..... cause denial works best.

especially when it's prolonged.

Cheers!